pretty beautiful space via skona hem.
i'm cleaning, really cleaning, my studio today. i need to make it a space i can feel comfortable and relaxed in. without getting too personal i do want to share with you that the last few weeks have been rough for me. if this were just a personal blog and not attached to my business it would be somewhat easier to know where the appropriate boundaries lie when it comes to what to share and what not. although blogging in general is tricky and makes me wonder not only what to share but why do i want to share it? i have friends; i sometimes write in a journal. these are the obvious places to deposit the personal. to help with sorting it out. on the other hand, i'm here on the blog a lot. i work from home. i have organized my life so that the lines between personal and public are a bit murky.
as i rearrange and clean in my studio i'm also thinking of something else. i am a person who needs to have her surroundings reflect her. if i am out of sync with my environment i am a bit of a mess. i know many people who are not this way. but for me a home is a very personal creation. not just a place to be when you're not at work. and to be totally honest i have never exactly felt that my environment reflects me. as i write that i wonder if i am being too egocentric, too needy, too selfish. overthinking.
the bottom line is i am a woman who needs to express herself creatively. it's not something i decided upon. it's who i am. my hunch is that if you are reading my blog you may feel this way as well. so i suppose that is why i am writing this. getting personal. looking for reassurance perhaps.
anyway, i'm not gonna go back and edit this ramble. i'm just gonna send it on out to you. with good thoughts and wishes and in an effort to connect with people like me.