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feeling the urge to chat.
i have been struggling with what i think is tendonitis in my left elbow and finding it painful to do simple things like use scissors and pick up my coffee cup. lugging firewood around is not helping. i struggle to put my seatbelt on in the car. this is making me feel frustrated but also defeated and old. i know anyone can have this problem but i tend to chock a lot up to age since, oh, i turned 40. i alternate between whining and doing my best to be a big girl. i mean woman.
i just ate half a box of jelly beans. i focused in on the mixed drink inspired flavors for a bit and decided yes on the pina colada, nay to the margarita.
if you've been following this blog for awhile (too long...i didn't say that) you'll remember i used to go for a lot of walks. they weren't exercise walks. they were therapy walks. and i don't mean the kind of pleasant pondering stroll you might be imagining, i'm talking something akin to pacing but in one direction where my face is all screwed up tight in an ugly pretzel shape and it looks like my head might pop off.
thank god for those walks. they pretty much saved my ass. but anyway.
i stopped taking them maybe 2 years ago. and ever since i've missed not the reason for taking them but the activity of them. it was my kind of meditation. i don't want to jinx myself but this year i really want to get back to it.
2013 is supposed to be a real good year for geminis. like, pinnacle.
the rob brezny gemini horoscope this week says:
Do you understand just how much power you have to create the life you want to live in 2013? Are you fully aware of just how much access you have to new resources?
i really honestly think this may be true!
i'm gonna ponder that as i get back into long walking this year.
a different gentler kind of walking with intention and optimism.